It is better to be Hated for what you are, Than to be Loved for who you are not.


My personal testimony of what God did for me ..... C.S. Lewis once said: ‚??A man can no more diminish God's glory by refusing to worship Him than a lunatic can put out the sun by scribbling the word, 'darkness' on the walls of his cell.‚?Ě and Albert Einstein said:‚??What I see in Nature is a magnificent structure that we can comprehend only very imperfectly, and that must fill a thinking person with a feeling of humility. This is a genuinely religious feeling that has nothing to do with mysticism‚?Ě
My name is Clarence; I‚??m a Minister of the Gospel of the true and living God. My life was changed in Aug of the year 1979 when I accepted Jesus into my heart. I now ask you to sit back and listen to what I have to say, don‚??t judge what I‚??m saying before I finish. I have no illusions that I will change your mind about what God can and will do for your life; BUT I do know for a fact that IF you will believe what I‚??m telling you today that your life will never be the same. I was raised in a small town called Taunton Mass after having moved from Ellsworth Maine where I was born where to this day, I do not know who my real mother and father were but because I know of the Sovereignty of God and his personal care of my life, I can go on with my life knowing his plans have my best interest at heart. In his plan, I was adopted at birth by a very loving couple who was childless and really wanted me, my mother Mary a backslidden Baptist and my Father Alexander Sargent an agnostic when it came to all things spiritual. But realize that I only found out about my adoption at 29 years old; long after both my mom and my dad had died and I had already become a Christian, I received a letter from the social security administration telling me of a Sister who wished to get in touch with me. My Sister Shirley told me that my real mom ( A full blooded native American Indian) had wanted an abortion because she could not care for me and my siblings (this is the ultimate rejection of a child.) She was actually at the doors of the clinic when some pro-life people talked her into adoption instead of murdering me, thank God for those who will stand up and stand out in this world for something good; if they had not, I would be among the millions a dead babies in a dumpster somewhere, I think you know where I stand on abortion as a result of this.

I was rasied in a lower middle class family and not used to the so-called good things in life as far as wealth is concerned but I was loved and that‚??s what really mattered anyway. BUT.... all that was soon to change because of a stupid decision of mine. I began to practice the occult in my teen years; but it all started one afternoon when I was 6 years old sitting in front of the ‚??boob tube‚?Ě watching an innocent television show called ‚??Bewitched‚?Ě from the moment that show aired I was hooked on the concept at least, of witchcraft; very innocently at first but nevertheless hooked. The Craft appealed to me on so many levels both physically and spiritually. I was already an introvert with very few friends and low self esteem in school, other than the few out -casts smoking dope in the parking lot of my school. And being an only child caused me to develop many imaginary friends . Now I believe this is Healthy to a point, but as I grew up these imaginary friends would drive my interest in the Occult and Drugs, for they were demonic in nature not the imaginary friends I thought they were. Since my interest was peaked by these "familiar spirits "watching that show I went headlong into a downward spiral from there. EVEN AS a child I knew that " Hollywood Witch-craft " was not the real thing which is the reason I desired to know the real practice and THEREIN lies the true danger of parents allowing their children to view and read things WITHOUT PROPER SUPERVISION; the television is NOT a babysitter. Understand, that it‚??s alright for an older child to be curious about it, as long as YOU the parent are there to guide them away from the evil content and to explain why God hates those things in a reasonable manner. It‚??s the great special effects that are the lure, but that will not stand before a holy God at the judgment seat as your excuse. I dedicated myself without any direction to find out about this ancient earth religion, as I began studying and looking for deeper truths in the world of magic and sorcery I was witness both to its beauty of focus and its pure savagery of intent. It wasn‚??t until after my adopted Mom died when I was only 17 that I was free to do as I pleased....and boy did I do as I pleased! I jumped headlong into drugs, Drinking, and Partying while trying to keep up a c+ to b average in high school, failing many courses because a lack of focus on them and because many of my teachers just wanted me out of their classes and passed me through without the proper training. I joined Wicca, as a private practitioner taking a course in the art of magic by Gavin and Yvonne Frost; The Wicca fascination I had did not last very long as I was hungry for a darker side; the more power and knowledge of the occult the better, I began to delve deeper and deeper into the so-called "Deep things of Occult Knowledge‚??, I would read Anton LaVeys "Satanic Bible" just to rebel against the God who I felt ‚??TOOK MY MOM FROM ME‚?Ě. I began mixing in Aleister Crowley's works on magic with the Wicca practices. I would study these books and many others on my lunch and library breaks. The Man, Myth, and Magic encyclopedia series was a great source of knowledge. But Just about anything dealing with works on Witchcraft I would give place to. The occult became an obsession, a lifestyle that I was hooked on just like my drug use, it was ‚??Mind-altering‚??. I learned still more from friends, many of which were Questionable at best but they knew what I wanted to know about how to tell fortunes and use Tarot cards and playing cards to make money on the side. I began to cast spells on others, while I worshiped the horned god and the goddess. I mixed all this knowledge together to form my own form of the Craft, never being a conformist I made it my own and would put it all in my journal called a "Witches Book of Shadows". The Book of Shadows is a Witch's greatest tool. It provides a place for all personal Craft secrets, your spell work, rituals, family traditions if you have any, almost anything a Witch can think or act on is contained in this book. As I figured out what my personal practices were I would write them in this journal . This was my personal "bible" to turn to anytime I needed help with a spell or spiritual concept, its ancient name is called a "Grimoire". I soon found out that when I would cast spells of evil intent on those I hated or disliked it began to work and I would also work "good magic" on those I liked that worked also. Everything seemed to be going my way. But the problems I was going through at this time in life had nothing to do with what happened to me in the daytime hours when I worshipped other gods and goddesses; or even my study time in the craft when I gained deeper knowledge and power as a black witch. My real trouble was a night time issue, an issue of fear and discontent both in my dreams and waking hours. I was in a constant deeply seated fear at the height of my power as a witch. And no matter what anyone tells you about the Craft; good or bad it will produce the same results that any lifestyle outside of God‚??s grace produces, and that is DEATH IN YOUR LIFE. Deut. 7:26 says:

‚??Do not bring a detestable thing into your house or you, like it, will be set apart for destruction. Utterly abhor and detest it, for it is set apart for destruction.‚?Ě

Lev. 20:27; 19:26 the second part of the verse says:

‚??A man or woman who is a medium or spiritist (wizard KJV) among you must be put to death. You are to stone them; their blood will be on their own heads. Do not practise divination or sorcery.‚?Ě

Lev. 20:6 says: ‚??I will set my face against the person who turns to mediums and spiritists (wizards KJV) to prostitute himself by following them, and I will cut him off from his people.‚?Ě

Is. 47:13-14 says clearly:

‚?? Let your astrologers come forward, those stargazers who make predictions month by month, let them save you from what is coming upon you. Surely they are like stubble; the fire will burn them up. They cannot even save themselves from the power of the flame. ‚??

I am a Christian now and I‚??m proud of it, but I‚??m NOT RELIGIOUS and will not fit willingly into a denominational mold, I mean let‚??s be real here-Religion has killed and maimed it‚??s share of truth at the alter of good intention JUST as atheism has murdered it‚??s share FREETHOUGHT. Let‚??s face real facts here for once shall we? BOTH RELIGION AND HUMMANISM have dropped the ball as far as getting it right is concerned, so let‚??s not blow smokescreens up each others HINDQUARTERS about what‚??s true and what‚??s not. A personal relationship is what God requires, he‚??s never been interested in ‚??Church-ianity‚?Ě or any form of man-made silliness. It‚??s about YOU and God, and not about YOU FITTING INTO A MOLD of like minded minds. I am always amazed when those who hate God say ‚??I cannot be a part of a faith that attacks science and reality.‚?Ě as if science were a humanistic invention, if you believe that you must have failed in history. Science has many Christian roots. Most of the early scientists were Christians such as Copernicus, Galileo, Pascal, Isaac Newton, Johannes Keppler, Robert Boyle, Louis Pasteur, Jean Henri Fabre, Michael Faraday, and John Ambrose Fleming. These great scientists operated within a Christian framework.An interesting fact is that the vast majority of all scientific development has come out of western civilization, what are the odds of that happening? And IT had Christianity as its basis to top that off. The idea is that the ‚??laws of nature‚?Ě came from Christianity, NOT HUMANISM; not to mention that the concepts of subduing nature and being stewards of nature are right from the first book of the Bible--Genesis and not in any way the invention of witches.

THAT IS WHY I view God as a rational and trustworthy person, which implies automatically that His creation is rational and orderly and thus can be examined FOR EVIDENCE OF HIS FINGERPRINTS. Nature in the Christian view (as compared to our non-Christian worldviews such as witchcraft) is that nature is no longer an object of fear and worship, because let‚??s face it‚?¶we only ‚??worship in ignorance‚?Ě what we ‚??Fear in ignorance‚?Ě. God on the other hand only DEMANDS KNOWLEDGEABLE WORSHIP. It is ‚??False Religion‚?Ě that MYSTIFIES GOD to the point that you can‚??t relate to him BUT must ‚??BLINDLY FOLLOW PRECEPTS AND RULES THAT MAKE NO SENSE‚?Ě to a freethinking mind. We need to do a self-check, to make sure we get rid of all of our idols, good luck charms, crosses, medallions, and demonic symbols. We must repent fully of trusting in fate, destiny, and luck: and put our whole trust in the Living Christ, follow Him wholeheartedly without exception to our fears from the past. Trusting in fate or luck is clearly a dependence upon evil spirits which I knew as ‚??familiars.‚?Ě
Now as to my testimony, as I alluded to earlier God‚??s plan for my life was set long before I was ever born and no matter what bad decisions I was making; up to this point, in fact I was on the very path to running into his power; that I had been running from, because he had the nerve to put two Christians into my life that could not be SCARED OR MOVED by my appearance or actions and REMEMBER I was a full out witch in both dress and lifestyle, they kept coming anyway, day after day and that impressed me. They were always inviting me to go to their church and NEVER GIVE UP ON ME! And so, one fateful Wednesday night Bible Study I sat at the BACK of this little Church of God in Cheyenne Wyoming. I came into the sanctuary half Drunk and half High, not wanting to be there at all. Much of the service I cannot recall BUT I do remember hearing the statement that God ‚??did not hate me for what I'd done, no matter how bad but that HIS LAWS REQUIRED HIS JUDGMENT on my soul‚?Ě God‚??s LOVE reached down and touched this Witch and suffered him NOT to live a life without hope, reviving me into NEW LIFE with Christ! I witnessed a literal shaft of Light shine down into my darkened mind and for the first time in over 8 years I could think for myself without the "VOICES OF DEMONS" interfering with my thoughts, that evening the night became "DAYTIME for me and now I can proudly say I am a new creation, the OLD dark things HAVE PASSED AWAY completely and Jesus is my Lord and Savior! Of course there are those who will think "Well, that's you, you were special to God and he loved you then more than me now, I've done too many sick and unforgivable things for God to love me!" THAT IS A LIE! God loves ALL MANKIND EQUALLY AND WITHOUT BEING PARTIAL TO ANY PERSON. It is Satan, the MASTER of the HALF-TRUTH that tells us these things. It is only because HE LOST IT ALL TO HIS OWN PRIDE that he wants YOU to suffer for his stupidity by following his path. Don't let him lie to you, God thinks as much of you as he does of his own son. Just give him your heart and he'll do the rest!

Favorite TV Shows

Anything dealing with my Faith, but also Science fiction and Dramatic movies, True stories, Love stories.

Favorite Books

The K.J.Bible is my favorite book of all but I read a lot of books dealing with Faith and with comparative Religions. Science Fiction and Drama is also a fav of mine.